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grandeur of God, the solemnity of eternity, and my responsibility as a minister, almost overwhelm me. I must watch and pray, making the name of Jesus my only trust, and waiting his decision with humble hope and firm reliance upon his word."

Nov. 20.-" Awoke this morning with the following lines of Dr. Watts on my mind:

'Dear God, the treasures of thy love

Are everlasting mines;
Deep as our helpless miseries are,

And boundless, as our sins.'

These sentiments harmonise with the doctrines taught by the Prophets and Apostles, and are adapted to encourage the faith and hope of the timid Christian, when oppressed with a conviction of his unworthiness.'

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Dec. 5.-" Passed this day in my study; read the Bishop of Gloucester's third charge to the clergy of his diocese. If the English Bench were filled with men who felt the importance of their office, and who were actuated by the love and zeal that animated the Apostles if the parochial clergy were such men as this excellent Bishop wishes to make the clergy of his diocese, there would be a revival in, and glory shed round, the Church of England, such as she has not seen since the days of Cranmer, Latimer, and Ridley."

11.-"Rose with severe pain in my side; my mind incapable of meditation-an involuntary sigh escaped-with, Lord, help me! This short, but comprehensive prayer, was suitable to my heart, which was oppressed with the danger of my

dear child. May I have the faith, and pray with the importunity and perseverance, of the Syrophenician woman, and then the same Almighty Power may say, Be it unto thee even as thou wilt."

Dec. 31.-" Before I close the memoranda of this year, I would solemnly and devoutly, O Lord God, offer up to Thee, the heart-felt homage of a grateful mind. I would confess my own ingratitude and unfruitfulness, and humbly implore the pardon and removal of these oppressive evils. With the new year, grant me an increase of new covenant blessings, and a larger portion of the Holy Spirit, that the remainder of my days may be more godlike, and more heaven-like. Deliver me from these earthly and grovelling affections, and let my conversation be as becometh the Gospel. And you, my dear children, if you ever read this hasty and unconnected memorial of your departed father, know that, although you are seldom mentioned in these pages, you were never far from my thoughts. My heart has often felt a deep and affectionate solicitude, for the eternal welfare of you, and yours. Unworthy as I am, yet, having found great favour in the eyes of my fellow-creatures, and been greatly prospered and blessed by the God of heaven, my name has hitherto been treated with respect-do nothing, I implore you, that shall disgrace it. O that the God of your father, and your father's father, may crown you with his grace and blessing! May we meet in heaven, to praise the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, the one living Jehovah, the God of

salvation; the God in whom I trust for pardon, sanctification, and eternal glory."

Jan. 20, 1823.-" Cold intense; great distress amongst the poor. The following anecdote was told by a mother, to whom I had sent bread and coals. On returning home, she found her little family crying with the cold, and intreating for some fire. The reply was, I have no money to buy coals.' A child at the door exclaimed, 'There is a man with some.' 'Yes,' said the poor mother, 'but they are not for us.' Scarcely had she finished speaking, when the man inquired for her; and the sound of these coals, must have been music in the ears of the little shivering group. Oh! what disease, what poverty, what distress, has sin brought into our world. What mercy to have escaped so many of these evils, for more than sixty-five years !"

March 6.-" The sounds of affliction and death have again saluted my ears. An early, diligent, and faithful assistant in the London Missionary Society, the Rev. Mr. Greathead, has finished his course. Many were the hours he devoted to his study. I hope to die either there, or in my pulpit, that I may be found working-not loitering, nor sleeping; but let me indulge no preference. God is too wise to err in his Government, and too good to those who trust in Him, either to forget or to forsake them. Let me only aspire to die in his favour, and to enjoy his divine presence.

April 13.-" The rector of St. John's is departed to his rest. This excellent man performed the duties of his office, with purity of motive and

an account.

anxiety of mind. The milk of human kindness mingled in his character with much of the meekness of Christ. He was a diligent, faithful pastor; superintending his parish as one who must give Kind and generous to the poor, tender and compassionate to the sick. Some of the parishioners knew not his worth; but those who despised and persecuted him, may one day acknowledge, that a prophet has been among them."

May 5.-" Went to the Bible Committee, where a letter was read from Mr. B——, accepting the secretaryship. Its language was that of sterling sense, unfeigned piety, and true humility. How beautiful and happy are the effects of the Bible Society! Is not the union of Christians, the very essence and glory of our common faith? Is not such union, the evidence of that love and harmony which the spread of the Gospel is finally to accomplish? Is not this the spirit which reigns in the celestial world? Are the redeemed in that glorious state arranged in churches, sects, and classes? It is the tendency of the Bible Society to promote this union; it is this which constitutes one ground of objection in the minds of bigots, and men zealous only for forms, modes, systems, and parties. But of such we will say, To their own Master, they must stand or fall: they must give account to Him, who judgeth righteously. The day is coming, when we shall know who have most effectually fulfilled their duty to Him; whether it is those who have joined the ranks of the Bible Society, and assisted in the dispersion of nearly four

millions of copies of the sacred Books, or those who have not only withheld their aid, but have opposed and slandered others, who have engaged in this work."

Oct. 4. Goodness and mercy have followed me and mine; and, with the returning light of another day, have returned the usual comforts. Yesterday had great difficulty in visiting five or six afflicted families; some individuals very ill. Had an interesting prayer-meeting; returned home much indisposed; read and prepared some of the Essays, till three o'clock.”

Dec. 31.-" Languid and ill, I would close the year with casting myself on thy care, O my God! Out of my great insufficiency, do Thou perfect thy strength and glory! Apply, Most Holy Spirit, to my conscience, the power of the Redeemer's atonement! May sermons preached during the past year, receive a heavenly benediction; and, when my feeble labours are ended, may I have an inheritance incorruptible, undefiled, and that fadeth not away."

March 4, 1824. Hatcham House." This spot reminds me of him with whom I once walked and took sweet counsel; but he has reached a happier clime, and walks along the avenues of that paradise in which the tree of life blooms in infinite perfection. What a mercy that the branches bend as low as the thorny paths of the wilderness; extending their shade to the sun-burnt traveller, producing fruit to sustain him when hungry, and leaves to make a balsam for all his maladies. Beautiful image of the excellency and value of

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