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to the bystander, of the safety of the individual, than their absence? Undisturbed serenity may be undisturbed delusion. A calm after anxiety is a victory after the battle-is the 'palm' when the battle is won. And such was the case of

Mr. Scott."

Finally, I would for myself avow, more strongly, if possible, than before, though without any design to retract or weaken the influence of what has been said on satanic agency, a firm conviction that the gloom, of which we speak, was, in the present instance, mainly to be attributed to the force of disease; which has the power of producing such effects, and effects also of an opposite description, beyond what those who have not carefully considered the subject are at all aware. The following sentence is no doubt strictly true in both its parts: "Good men may be unreasonably depressed and dejected, and bad men supported and elevated, under the near prospect of death, from the mere operation of natural causes."*. -At the same time, the reader has been called to observe, and in what is to follow he will still further perceive, how large an intermixture there was of joyful, as well as of dejected sentiments, in the case before us. I now insert the

MEMORANDUMS

made during my father's illness.

My sister says in her letter of March 24, (above page 348,) "The first days I was here I could do nothing but weep and pray." Subsequently she says, "At length, however, I was roused to the edifying nature of the scene, and to consider how beneficial the recollection of it might hereafter be to myself and others. This induced me to make some notes of what passed."-These are as follows:

"In the time of his darkness and gloom, he prayed without ceasing, and with inexpressible fervor. He seemed unconscious of any one being near him, and gave vent to the feelings of his mind without restraint. And, oh! what holy feelings were they; what spirituality, what hatred of sin, what humility, what simple faith in Christ, what zeal for God's glory, what submission! Never could I hear him without being reminded of him, who, being in an agony,

* Pearson's Life of Hey.

prayed the more earnestly; and whose language was, My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me? Nevertheless, Thou continuest holy! I think nothing,' he said, 'of my bodily pains: my soul is all. I trust all will end well; but it is a dreadful conflict. I hope-I fear-I tremble-I pray. Satan tries to be revenged on me, in this awful hour, for all that I have done against his kingdom through life. He longs to O Lord! pluck me out of Christ's hand. Subdue the enemy, Silence the accuser! Bruise Satan under my feet SHORTLY!

Hide me, O my Savior hide,
Till the storm of life is past,
Safe into the haven guide,

O receive my soul at last,
Other refuge I have none!""

---Oh, to enter eternity with one doubt on the mind! Eternity-Eternity Eternity!'-'People talk of assurance not being attainable in this world, nor perhaps much to be desired. They and the devil agree on this point.' 'O what a thing sin is!--Who knoweth the power of his wrath? If this be the way to heaven, what must the way to hell be? If the righteous scarcely be saved, where shall the ungodly and the sinner appear?"

"He mentioned the wonderful way in which his prayers for others had been answered; and seemed to derive some comfort from the reflection. He thought he had failed less in the duty of intercession than in any other!*

"He rejected every attempt to comfort him by reminding him of the way in which he had served and glorified God. Christ is ALL, he said: 'he is my only hope. Hide me, O my Savior, &c.; Other refuge have I none,' &c.

"In the midst of his conflict he generally expressed hope of final victory, but thought he should die under a cloud. He accused himself of self-indulgence and slackness in prayer; of having made his religious labors an excuse for shortness in private devotion.

"There was an astonishing absence of selfish feeling. Even in his worst hours, he thought of the health of us all: observed if we sat up long, and insisted upon our retiring; and was much afraid of paining or hurting us in any way.

Perhaps, when all circumstances are fully considered, there is not a sentence in these papers more remarkable than this: nor a fact in his history more indicative of his zeal for God and love to man, than that to which it relates. Who among us can make a similar declaration?

"His wonderful knowledge of scripture was a source of great comfort, and the exactness with which he repeated passage after passage, frequently remarking upon emphatic words in the original, was amazing. The manner also in which he connected one with another was admirable. It resembled hearing a series of exquisitely selected scripturereferences read with a solemnity and feeling such as one had never before witnessed.

"His first clear consolation was after receiving the Lord's supper, on Thursday, March 22d. He had previously observed: 'An undue stress is by some laid upon this ordinance, as administered to the sick, and I think others of us are in danger of undervaluing it. It is a means of grace, and may prove God's instrument of conveying to me the comfort I am seeking.' The scene was indescribable, and -can never be forgotten by any one who witnessed it. His fervor, his humility, the way in which he raised his emaciated hands to heaven, his pallid dying countenance, so full of love, and expressive of every thing heavenly and holy, the tears and sobs of those present: all together were most overpowering. Surely God was with us in a peculiar manner. Shortly after the service was concluded, he said, Now Lord lettest thou thy servant depart in peace, for mine eyes have seen thy salvation. Through the remainder of the day, though much exhausted, and during the night, he continued in a very happy state of mind.

"To his son-in-law, who came in the evening, and regretted his absence when the sacrament was administered, he said: 'It was beneficial to me: I received Christ, and he received me. I feel a composure which I did not expect last night: I have not triumphant assurance, but something which is more calm and satisfactory. I bless God for it. And then he repeated, in the most emphatic manner, the whole of the twelfth chapter of Isaiah: "O Lord, I will praise thee; though thou wast angry with me, thine anger is turned away, and thou comfortest me, &c." Oh to realize the fulness of joy! to have done with temptation! ""They shall hunger no more, neither thirst any more; neither shall the sun light on them nor any heat: for the Lamb, which is in the midst of the throne, shall feed them, and shall lead them unto living fountains of waters: and God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes. They are come out of great tribulation, and have washed their robes, and made them white in the blood of the Lamb. Therefore re theybefore the throne of God." "

'Sin, my worst enemy before,
Shall vex my eyes and ears no more:
My inward foes shall all be slain,

Nor Satan break my peace again.'—

"We know not what we shall be: but we know, that when he shall appear, we shall be like him, for we shall see him as he is. The righteous hath hope in his death-not driven away; nổ, no, not driven away, as the wicked is." "

When I tread the verge of Jordan,
Bid my anxious fears subside!'-

Though painful at present,
'Twill cease before long;
And then, oh how pleasant
The conqueror's song!'

"What a mercy,' he said, on something being prepared for him, 'that there are so many changes of food for bad appetites; and so many kind relatives, friends, and domestics, doing all they can to help me.-You are all trying to comfort me: God bless you, and all whom you desire to be blessed! He will be a God to Abraham, and to his seed, and his seed's seed. Let the children of thy servant continue, and their seed be established before thee!

How would the powers of darkness boast

If but one praying soul were lost!'

He frequently repeated, Perfect peace!

"In the evening he asked Mr. Dawes if there was not a proof sheet that night, extending nearly to the close of St. John. And then, evidently going over in his mind the contents of the last chapters of that gospel, he said, 'Well: It is finished: We shall soon finish our work too. After a pause-My Lord, and my God! and then with great animation, These things are written that ye might believe that Jesus is the Christ, the Son of God, and that, believing, ye might have. life through his name. He again paused, and then proceeded: 'Lovest thou me?' and, turning to his sons, 'It is too late to say to me, but he says to you, feed my sheep, feed my lambs.. That is the way to shew your love. I have endeavored to do it, but it is all over now.' Mr. D. said, 'Your works will furnish food for them for a long time to come:' he replied, 'Aye, but they will get out of fashion.' Mr. D. 'The Bible will not get out of fashion.' 'But they will get a new fashioned way of commenting upon it.' Mr. D. said something

further on the permanency of his comment. 'Pho,' he cried with a semi-contemptuous smile; and added: 'Oh, you do not know what a proud heart I have, and how you help the devil. They may take a few hints, I hope. I leave something which they may have in remembrance after my decease, but oh!'-with great solemnity-what an awful responsibility rests upon me! I have done what I could. Forgive-accept-bless!"

"He proceeded: "There is one feeling I cannot have if I would. Those that oppose my doctrine have slandered me sadly: but I cannot feel any resentment. I can only love and pity them, and pray for their salvation. I never did feel any resentment against them: I only regret that I did not more ardently long and pray for the salvation of their souls.'-'I feel most earnest in prayer for the promotion of Christ's kingdom all over the earth. Hallowed be thy name- -Thy kingdom come- -Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven!— Be thou exalted, Lord, in thy own strength; so will we sing and praise thy power. There are two causes in the world, the cause of God, and the cause of the devil; the cause of our Lord Jesus Christ, and the cause of the devil. The cause of God will prevail all over the world, among all kindreds, and people, and tongues. IT SHALL fill the whole earth. Hallowed be thy name, &c.'

"I hope I leave something,' he said, referring to his writings, 'which may do good to the industrious; and nothing can do good to the idle.'

"He afterwards alluded with great concern to the death of his father. 'I fear he knew not Immanuel, the Lord our righteousness. His last letter to me was full of Socinian principles. I wrote a long and affectionate answer, but he died before it arrived.'-Then to his grandson: 'You see your grandfather, I trust, die a more Christian death than his father: may you die a more Christian death than either grandfather or great grandfather! To this end lead a more Christian life. You have greater advantages than they had. You have been planted in the courts of the Lord: but oh!' (raising his emaciated hands with amazing energy,) despise not the birth-right; lest afterwards you find it not, though you seek it carefully with tears.-I have nothing but my blessing and good-will to give you. I have no money to leave you; and, if I had, it would be a mere bauble, a bubble, all vanity.'

"In the night Mr. Dawes, sitting by him, heard him say in a low voice: 'O God, thou art the husband of the widow,

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