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About six weeks before he died, he wrote the following, and requested a copy to be sent to each of his relatives:

"I would affectionately and earnestly request of my beloved relatives, my brothers and sisters, my nephews and nieces, and all, that they would, at least once every week, and I wish it could be once every day, read, deliberately and seriously, a portion of the Bible, the word of God, with earnest prayer to God, that he would enlighten their minds by his Spirit, to understand, especially, so much of his word, as relates to their duty and the way of salvation by Christ, and that he would give them grace to feel and act according to the knowledge thus acquired.

"Baltimore, August 1, 1835."

"WILLIAM NEVINS.

Nor was his solicitude confined merely to his own family. It extended to his wife's family. Of this, there are many proofs. The following memoranda are made by him:

"MARCH 27, 1830. A memorable day! Last evening I heard of the death of my poor dear sister, Louisa Key; with difficulty, I suppressed my feelings and kept it from my wife until this morning, when, to her first, and then successively to Mrs. Key, R, and A-, I broke the heavy tidings. Dear, loved Louisa, my sister, for my heart tells me in its agony that thou wast loved, art thou indeed gone? It is no delusive dream; but sad,

shocking reality. Yes, thou art gone! So soon and for ever gone:-how unexpectedly to us; how unexpectedly to thee. Oh my sister, I could weep out these eyes for thee! I could break my heart for thee! Thou didst not think that thou wast going to L-———— to find a grave! A few days ago, thou wast moving, admired and admiring, among the too fascinating gayeties of N. O.;—now, thou art-where art thou, dear spirit? Late, though it was, yet at last, I trust, thou didst love and look to Jesus, and he who turned not away the prayer of one whose last utterance was, 'Lord remember me,' heard thee, I fondly hope, and did not forget thee in that hour of thy need. Poor young thing! thou wast not familiar with death. He had never before presented himself to thee-thou didst not expect himbut he came! Oh, if I were but assured that Jesus was with thee then, and that thou art now with him, I should still weep, but they would be tears of gratitude! Oh, if thou art with him, stay where thou art! I would not call thee back-thou wouldst not come! No, if thou sleepest in Jesus, sleep on; I would not wake thee! Oh Louisa, I wish I had been more faithful to thee; I wish I had prayed for thee more. I might have been a better brother to thee. But there is one that did, night and morning, pray for thee-thy mother; and her desire for thee was not worldly prosperity, but that her child might be a child of God. Oh Louisa, what could I do for thee now, now that nothing can be done for thee! I will be more faithful to thy sisters, and will say to them, what I know thou wouldst say, couldst thou speak to them from thy new

home in eternity. Poor E-, I pity thee. God have mercy on thee. She, that was more to thee than thy sister, thine other self, is taken from thee. She came

into being with thee, but has gone out without thee. The set is broken; one of the pair is gone; but thou mayest be mated again to thy Louisa.

heaven reunite you!

Oh, may

"JUNE 1. Yesterday, our dear friends from Louisiana, after long and anxious expectation of them, arrived. Poor E, the shock of the meeting caused her reason to totter on its throne; but to-day it sits firm in its seat. Alas, Louisa is not; she went, but she came not again with them. Oh death, rarely hast thou ever gained a richer victory, or carried off a lovelier trophy! And yet, I trust it was only an apparent victory, and that the spirit of Louisa was laid a trophy at the feet of Jesus. Oh, I trust that through grace she is saved. In the delirium of her disease, she called constantly on her mother, Mother, mother, come to your child.' Ah, she would have come, she would have flown on the wings of love; but she heard not, she knew not of it-she could not come; but oh, I trust, Jesus came at the call, and he was better to her than her mother. They asked her where she thought she would go when she died, and she raised her eyes and lifted her finger, and said, 'to Heaven.' And there, I trust, she is waiting for us. Oh God, didst thou not take away from her the terror of death, and inspire that hope? She wanted to leave a message for E, but it was too late. She articulated E,' but could no more, and presently was fast in the embrace of death."

The following extracts from Dr. Nevins' diary, are given in an unbroken series, solely because it was judged best that the reader should see his views as he recorded them in private. They treat of matters, many of which are noticed elsewhere, but as there are 'no tedious details, they are given entire:

"JANUARY 1, 1830. Ebenezer! Hitherto hath the Lord helped me. Preached to-day, I trust, with somewhat of the right kind of spirit. Blessed be God, that I think I never commenced a year so well. May He strengthen me to fulfil all my resolutions !

"JANUARY 7, 1830. I had a good day on the sabbath, and hope that good was done, which eternity will reveal, if it should never appear in time. Last evening I spoke on the concern which Christians ought to feel for the salvation of souls. Oh that I might habitually feel it. How it would excite me to duty. Thanks to God, that yesterday I found one soul awaking if not awakened. May she sleep never again until she sleep in Jesus. How hard it is to keep one's resolutions! It requires unremitted watchfulness:and what is so difficult as to be ever watchful!

"JANUARY 28, 1830. How mercifully has God dealt with me! How entirely unencumbered am I with the care of providing for the earthly support of myself and my family! How many much more worthy ministers are straitened in their worldly circumstances, while I possess the greatest abundance! Oh that I may sympathize with my poorer brethren, and never harden my heart against them, but be always ready to communicate

to them, and in every way to assist them; may gratitude impel me to this, and may I remember how easily God may withdraw from me my support, by disqualifying me for the ministry, or alienating my people from me. Oh, to make such a use of money as to be able to give account of it with joy; and oh, to be faithful to my Lord and Master in all things! Oh, to be delivered from the fear of man!

"FEBRUARY 3, 1830. Called on Mrs. A, who has been anxious for some time past, and found her rejoicing in hope. She spoke of having received great comfort and instruction from my sermon last Sunday, on 2 Cor. vii, 10. I felt a confidence that God would accomplish some good by it.

"FEBRUARY 4, 1830. Oh, that God, by his abundant grace, would keep me from being lifted up with pride. God forbid, especially, that I should be ever left to take to myself any of the credit of a conversion. Let me not think that even my instrumentality is needed by the Lord. How easily he could do without me. It is an act of pure favor, that I am permitted to be in any way subservient to the spiritual good of others, and so may I ever esteem it. Laus Deo, be my

motto!

"FEBRUARY 5, 1830. Oh take away from me the fear of death! How far am I from that perfection of love which casts out fear! May I place my happiness in the enjoyment of God alone, and account heaven my home, and myself a pilgrim here.

"FEBRUARY 14, 1830. The Lord has helped me through this day; but Oh, if he should make the

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