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work, converting sinners, and making the wrath of man to praise him. Oh that Haverhill and Beverly might experience the influence of the Holy Spirit. God can work here as easily, as in Salem and Manchester. Let us be ardent and constant at the throne of mercy, that the blessed Immanuel would revive his work, and pour out his Spirit or the Churches and people, with which we are connected. Oh why, my friend, are we so cold and stupid? I carnestly request an interest in your prayers. Yours sincerely, HARRIET."

1810.

April 6. This evening, had some interesting conversation with a friend, upon the past scenes of my life. Oh how is my life filled up with folly and sin! Surely, if I am ever pardoned and accepted by the blessed Redeemer, I must ascribe it wholly to the mercy of God.

April 29. A sudden death, this week. Mrs. C. was in health and prosperity one hour, and the next-in the cold embraces of the universal conqueror! May this solemn event, be sanctified to surviving friends. And may it lead me to place my affections on the things of eternity.

May 4 Just returned from the house of God Had a most interesting sermon, preached by Mr. A. Text; "Ye are the salt of the earth; but if the salt have lost its savor, wherewith shall it be salted."

Mr. E. called upon us a few moments, and informed us, there was a great revival of religion in his society and town. Oh how did it rejoice my heart! However cold and stupid,

can in sincerity say, that I love to hear of the conversion of sinners. Must Haverhill be left destitute of the Spirit? Oh let me be ardent and constant at the throne of grace, for the outpouring of the Spirit; and a revival of religion amongst us.

May 11. Called upon a friend this morning, who, to human appearance, is on the brink of the grave. She was speechless, though not senseless. Her very countenance declared the importance of religion. Never shall I forget the affectionate manner, in which she pressed my hand to her bosom, and lifted her eyes to heaven, as if calling down a blessing upon me. Oh that I could rightly improve this affecting dispensation of Providence.

May 24. I have been where heaven and hell, the soul and eternity, appear important subjects! The people in B. are awake. Attended two evening lectures-the meeting-house thronged with solemn and attentive hearers.

May 29. Attended singing school this evening. Though meetings for this purpose be ever so pleasant, yet so great have been my temptations the winter past, that I could not feel sorry that the meetings were concluded. Hope I have not brought dishonor upon the cause of Jesus, by my careless behavior, before my companions.

May 30. Election day. This day recalls many painful events, which occurred last year, at this time. How was I then laboring for "the meat that perisheth,"-following the leadings of a trifling heart. It was infinite mercy, that snatched me from the abyss, and,

as I humbly trust, made me a monument of redeeming love. "Praise the Lord, Oh my soul."

June 2. Have had some interesting conver sation with Miss W. upon the situation of my dear E. Who knows, thought I, but what she might now have been earnestly engaged in the cause of the Redeemer, if it were not for my unchristian conduct. How can I think of being an enemy to the souls of my dear friends?

June 3. Solemn indeed have been the transactions of this day. Oh that they might be remembered with joy through eternity. Had some humbling views of my past ingratitude. The aggravated transgressions of my life, the last six months, in particular, have been laid open before me. Have again solemnly resolved to live to God. If I should again become stupid but no,-I cannot-I will surrender myself to Jesus. He will keep me from falling, and present me faultless before his Father's throne.

June 4. Have been solemnly impressed with the worth of immortal souls this day. The welfare of my school companions lies near my heart. In what way can I be serviceable to them? They have souls, as valuable as mine. Oh then, let me use my best endeavors to bring them to the knowledge of the truth, and save them from that awful punishment, which awaits the finally impenitent.

June 8. Afflicted with a severe pain in my head. A celebrated author observes, that every pain we feel, is a warning to us, to be prepared for death. Oh that it may have this effect upon me.

June 20. How unsatisfying and unstable are all the enjoyments of time. I am daily more convinced that nothing short of the unchangeable Jehovah, can afford real happiness. To day, we may imagine ourselves possessed of a friend, who will not forsake us; to-morrow, that same person may prove a deceiver. May Flearn wisdom from the news I have this evening heard. Oh that such things might have a happy tendency to wean me from this world, and prepare me for another.

June 30. Called on my dear friend E. She has lately experienced affliction. She told me that she was resigned to divine Providence, and could rejoice, even in the hour of distress. Happy composure! What joys, Oh ye deluded followers of unrighteousness, have you to boast, compared with that experienced by a humble follower of Jesus?

July 1. Hail sacred morning! Once ushered in with the most interesting events ever registered in the records of time. On this holy morning, the Savior rose from the grave. Expect this day to commemorate the sufferings of the Lamb of God. Grant me, gracious God, sweet communion with thee. Let me not eat and drink judgment to myself.

July 7. How have I spent the day? What a dreadful sink of wickedness is my heart. Must I resign the idea, of ever feeling the power of religion? Surely if I am a child of God, I could not live so stupid.

July 19. Favored with the privilege of attending a lecture this afternoon. Our dear minister preached from these words: "How

long halt ye between two opinions;" a most solemn discourse. In the evening, a meeting at Mr. D.'s for religious conversation. A small number of young people appear unusually solemn. Has God already begun to show the riches of his grace? Will he not arise, and have mercy on Haverhill, and make it a place, where he will delight to dwell?

Aug 6. How soon are my resolutions, to live wholly to God, broken! My conscience daily reproaches me, for my unfaithfulness to my companions, to myself and to my God. If any one should have told me, when light first shone on my mind, that I should feel such indifference to the salvation of sinners, and so little love to God, as I now feel, I should have exclaimed, impossible!

Oct. 10. This day entered upon my eigh teenth year. Seventeen years have roiled, almost insensibly, away. I still remain a pilgrim in this barren land. Merciful Jesus, on the commencement of this year, may the supporting hand be underneath me, and if my life is prolonged, may it be more faithfully devoted to thee, and to thy blessed cause.

Oct. 20. A female friend called upon us this morning. She informed me of her determination, to quit her native land, to endure the sufferings of a Christian amongst heathen nations

-to spend her days in India's sultry clime. How did this news affect my heart! Is she willing to do all this for God; and shall I refuse to lend my little aid, in a land where divine revelation has shed its clearest rays? I have felt more, for the salvation of the heathen, this

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