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The Saturday morning before his death, I was with him. When he was brought into the room, I observed that his countenance appeared serene; rather pleasant. I asked him how he did as to the state of his mind? His answer was, as near as I can recollect, Comfortable: I want to be with Christ; he is glorious, and I am sinful.'

The afternoon before his execution, I found him much terrified with the prospect of the manner of his death. He trembled, and thus expressed himself; I think I see myself hanging up before the people.' But this fear soon subsided; and at his own desire, he had three Christian friends to spend the night with him; by whom I have been informed of his behaviour through the night, and the manner in which they employed their time.

When they went into his room, he had the Bible in his hand; and being asked how he was, he said, 'I am easy,' and began to read the sd chapter of John; and when he came to the words of Christ concerning the new birth, he stopped, and testified that he had reason to think that God had given him to know by experience what that was; said several things respecting his view of the excellency of God, and the evil of sin; and thought, as far as he knew his heart, that he did love God for his own worthiness, and hate sin, because contrary to God. He assured the company that he hated his own evil thoughts, and wanted to be freed from all sin; crying out at times, If I am not right, I hope God will put me right. I see,' said he, that if I could be admitted into heaven with this body of sin, I could not be happy. I know I must be like God;

I must be holy.' He slept none all night, and at times used the following expressions: 'O what should I do, if it was not for Jesus Christ; wonderful, wonderful goodness and love of God! How have we sinned against him!' The company prayed with him alternately; and he, at their desire, prayed also. In his address to God, he appeared sensible of his unspeakable guilt, and affected with the wonderful way of salvation by Christ; and earnestly begged that the Lord would be with, him in his last hours. Nor did he forget to pray for his friends and his enemies. In the morning he declared that he had a pleasant night, appeared resigned, and bid his friends farewell with calmness, never expecting to see them on earth again.

At nine o'clock that morning (which was the day of his execution) at his request, I visited him; found him solemn and composed, considering the circumstances in which he was, and had much conversation with him, in the presence of four or five persons of serious character. His views of himself, and of redemption by Christ, were the same as are mentioned before; there fore it is needless to repeat them. At this time, he more than once said, "I hope I am right, and shall not deceive myself. On Christ alone I rest; if I perish, I will perish at his feet.'

But I come now to the conversation that I had with him, as we proceeded in solemn pace to the place of death.

About two o'clock he came out of the prison yard, attended with all the awful formalities of execution; his arms pinioned, and the halter about his neck, following the cart in which were

his coffin and the ladder. Gladly would I have been excused from this painful office; but the youth's importunity, and a sense of duty, forbid me to decline it. I therefore stepped up to him, and thus addressed him: AMES, how do you feel under your present circumstances? The answer was not a little surprising. I feel composed. I am not afraid. What can make me feel so? Could it be, if I had not a good hope?" This nat urally led me to enter upon a familiar consideration of the nature of a good hope; such as, that hope is the expectation of enjoying a certain good at a future period; that a good hope of eternal life, or happiness hereafter, is a gift of God; that it has for its foundation the righteousness of Christ; that the man who has a good hope has been made sensible of his guilt and helplessness, and from a view of Christ as the ground of his hope has been enabled to fly to him, and cast himself upon him, expecting the blessing hoped for wholly as a free gift, he being unworthy, and having nothing to bring as a price in his hand; farther, that where this divine hope is, there will be such gracious exercises of mind as these: hatred of sin, sin of heart and life, because of its opposition to God; a prevailing desire to be perfectly free from all sin, and like to God; with much to the same purpose. He listened with a solemn attention; and when I had done, he said-I know that there is no other salvation but Christ; on him I rest my soul, and think I can say, I hate sin because God hates it, and do long to be made holy. I see that if I had sinned but once, and could live a thousand years, and pray and read

all that time, I could not make amends for that one sin. I can have no hope but Christ. If ever I enter into heaven, it will be by the free grace of God: it can only be by the mercy of God, because I never did a good thing in all my life. I have done nothing but sin against God.'

He discovered no anxiety about his body, or the death he was to die, all the way to the gal lows, except once; which I think was occasioned by the falling of the end of the halter from under his arm. He caught it up, and said, ‘Did I ever think that I should have such a thing about my neck?' To which I replied, AMES, how could you expect any thing else from your manner of life? Did you not tell me, that you once passed the gallows with stolen goods under your arm, and thought then that you should die there, if you did not leave off stealing? O yes, I did. True, true. But is there not yet hope for such a sinner? Is not the blood of Christ sufficient to cleanse me from all sin? On that I trust.' Several times by the way, he affectionately used the words of David, in a short prayer to the Lord; "Search me, O God, and know my heart; try me, and know my thoughts; and see what wicked way is in me, and lead me in the way everlasting!" I also observed him breathe out his soul to God, as we walked, in these words- O Lord, make me holy.'

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I asked him how his past life appeared to him; to which he said, Bad, bad beyond all account! My sins frighten me, they are so many and great.' But still he rested on that sacred declaration, "the blood of Christ cleanseth from all sin."

He asked several questions about the way of access to God the Father through Christ, and

concerning the distinction between the Father and the Son. Also, whether I thought that the souls of the wicked at death would appear before God, to receive the sentence of condemnation ? or, whether they would immediately pass to hell, and wait their doom at the day of judgment? To all which I answered him. The questions were asked, and the answers attended to with an astonishing composure.

He mentioned with astonishment the horrors of conscience he had been under at a certain time while in prison; expressed his wonder at God's goodness to him, and his gratitude also that he now enjoyed such an agreeable composure of mind; and would ask, 'How can it be? I hope I am not deceived!'

By this time we came in sight of the gallows. I designedly took no notice of it, but watched the prisoner to see how he would behave, expecting that the sight of it would give him a shock. But he looked up, and said, 'There is the gallows; and I shall soon know, dear Sir, more than you.* I asked him how his mind was, at the near approach of dissolution. I feel composed,' said he.

We were now hindered from conversing, by the pressing of the multitude, who were all desirous to be as near the prisoner as possible. Upon coming under the gallows, he was ordered to get into the cart and stand up while the warrant for his execution was read; after which he sat down on his coffin, and I asked him, as the solemn period was at hand when he would launch into eternity, how things appeared to him. As for his heart and life, he declared, shaking his head at the same time, that they were bad;

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