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'me by and by. He mentioned that God suffered Balaauz to go where he desired; likewise a young man that came to Charleston, who lay under a mistake on a certain occasion, and some other things similar to this; which considering who he was, and my singular standing, and danger of running too fast or too slow, or going on one side or the other, discouraged me much, when I gave * way to reasoning and doubting on the subject of niy du
ty in so travelling; but when I put my confidence in God, and submitted the matter to him, I felt peace and happiness of mind, and an inward refreshment and courage to go forward: he said that he did not know when travelling, that ever he felt it impressed on his mind to go to one place more than another; but said he, if I heard of a place opened, or a meeting-house vacant of a minister, or a wicked neighbourhood, why reason said I should go. In reading Alerander K-'s life, I could not but remark his dream, page 96, about the pit and spring of water, &c.
H. H. gave me a paper where to call on certain famiJies; I cautioned him on what he did, lest he should be censured for opening my way: said he, I leave every man to paddle his own canoe. I left the house before the family was up, and walked nine iniles ; at Washington, where H. lived, a contribution was offered, as well as at Uchee creek, and some other places, which I refused, knowing that example goes before precept, and that impostors are fond of money, and if I were not Suarded should be esteemed as such; however, at the Jatter place eleven dollars were sent from the people by Mir, H. and forced upon me.
I found the great baptist meeting would tal:e off the people, so I continued on my walk until I got about iwenty miles from H.'s, (giving away handbills on the l'oad) where I sat down in the forks of the path and med. itated what I should do to preserve my journals from an approaching "shower. Just then a man, whom I had given a handbill to, came along and invited me to his house: he dismounted from his horse, and I got on, and goon arrived there, which was about a mile, when an awful shower of rain fell, I think as ever I beheld; so my journals were preserved. This man had no religion. In
the night I felt uneasy, and my heart bound upon the road ; the man perceiving that I was getting up, inquired the cause, and strove to discourage me; but not prevailing, arose and taking two hiorses from his stable, carried me across two or three streams of deep running water, and by a tavern where was a sharp cross dog. Soon as the day dawned he went back, and I continued my course a sew miles, and found a family of methodists where I took breakfast; but thought that they supposed that I was an impostor ; and being informed where a funeral sermon was to be preached I quit them, and went to hear Britain Caple, who spoke in the power and demonstration of the Spirit; after which, I asked and obtained permission and spoke a few words, as Caple thought I could do no barm, (I appeared so simple to him as he afterwards said) if I could do no good. Thence I went to Greensborough, and held meeting that night, and the night following, and then concluded to go, not amongst the methodists, unless it came in my way: but principally around to the Court-houses, &c. and on my way to Oglethrop, I called at a house to rest, (having the night before travelled a considerable distance till two men overtook me, and on finding who I was, provided me lodging the remainder of the night;) and the man began to find fault about the methodists, (he not knowing who I was,) by which means I found one in the neighbourhood; went there and left some handbills · for the neighbourhood; and as I was going off, the family found out who I was, and invited me to tarry and hold a meeting aster they had inquired, and found that I was not one of O'Kelly's party. In the meeting a black wa man belonging to General Stewart, who was brother to the man of the house, fell down and lay like a corpse for some time; and her hands seemed as cold as death: we were at prayer when she fell, and her falling had like to have knocked me over: after about an hour and a half she came to, and praised God: I gave her my pocket bible, with orders to carry it home, and if she could not read herself, to get the whites to do it for her. I had a meeting next night, and morning following; and thence proceeded to three appointments, which the family had sent on; one was at Lexington at Pope's Chapel. About this time I had a singular dream which induced me to cross the Oconee river, and tarried with a kind baptist family that night : next day I called on Tigner, a noted methodist; and finding that the circuit preacher T. C." would be there the next day, I left a parcel of handbills, and went on my way until evening, when I stopped for lodging; and hearing of a serious family, I called on them, but scarce knew how to introduce mysell; however, the family on asking me various questions, invited me to tarry all night; and in the evening on finding out what I was, invited me to hold a meeting next day,' which I accordingly did; this being in Clark County ; and at night in Jackson old Court-house; where a few dollars were forced upon me: I was solicited to tarry longer, but felt my heart drawn to travel with expedition, over these interior countries and return to Neiras England, as my health and strength had returned far, far beyond my expectation.
Monday 22. I walked thirty-five miles to Franklin, and liad a meeting at night.
23. Yesterday espying some drunken people, (apparently so) I left an appointment, which to-day I fulfilled, and such an attention is rare to be found.
24. An opportunity presenting, I rode a number of miles and had meeting at night in Elberton, and thie night following---I got an opportunity of sending some hand-bills to the 'Tombigby, where perhaps I may one day visit. What am I wandering up and down the earth. for? Like a speckled bird among the birds of the forest; what is before me I know not, trials I expect at haud, my trust is still in God, my trials are keen: my mind seems to be led to return to the north by the way of Charleston.
26th. I went to Petersburg, had a letter from Doctor... Lester, of New-York, io Solomon Roundtree there, who opened my house for nieeting, and shewed me the greatest kindness of any man, since I came to the south; I. went through the town and dispersed some hand-bills, .. which brought many out to meeting. I visited Vienna and Lisbon, and continued my course towards Augusta, though strongly intreaied to tarry longer, with the offer: of an horse to ride about sixty miles, but could not find
freedoin to tarry, or accept; yet about ten dollars I was constrained to receive, lest in attempting to do good, I should do harm. Some good impressions appeared to be made. I called at a house on the road, where I saw a woman ask a blessing at the table, and I, to give her a sounding, talked somewhat like a deist; she was a methodist, and was going to turn me out of doors, when a man said, he is one of your own party; which was the preventative. I tarried all night, which she would take nothing for, but gave me some advice; as she halted between two opinions who I was. Calling for some breakfast on the road, the old man insisted I should pay before I eat, whieh I did, and asked the cause of a collection of youths so early: the reply was, to revive the yesterday's wedding. After some talk, I gave them some hand-bills ; the old man took one and began reading like an hero, when Teeling conviction, could hardly go through: I prayed with them, and went on my way, and some of the young people who came for the resurrection of the wedding, as they called it) followed me out of doors, with tears, and the old man forced back the quarter dollar which I had paid for my breakfast.
Tuesday, March 2d. As I was sitting down to rest, by the forks of some roads, four persons were passing by me, and I overheard the word meeting ; which induced me to ask, if they were going to meeting: but the answer was cool ; so I followed after them, and going along to see what they were after, about half a mile out of my road, I came to a large assembly of people at a presbyterian meeting house, waiting in vain for their minister; I gave them some hand-bills, the people read them, and then shewed them through the assembly; and some persons present who had heard of me before, told it, so I was invited to speak, with this provise, that I must give over if the minister came. I spoke nearly an hour on free salvation, but the minister did not come. I receiped an invitation to a methodist meeting-house, where I had two meetings, and some dated their awakenings and conversion from that time. From man, we may receive favours, and ask again and be denied with resentment; but the more we expect from God, the more we shall have in answer to faith and prayer, in sincere patience, in submission to the will of God; and the longer I pursue the course of religion, the more I am convinced of the truth of these scripture passages, that all things shall work together for yood to them that love God: if we don't bring the trials on ourselves needlessly; and no good thing will God withhold from them that walk uprightly. Lord increase my faith, I expect trials are at hand; the devil can shew light, but not love, and in going in the way of love's drawings, I generally prosper; but in going contrary thereto, barrenness, distress, burthens, and unfruitfulness, and sorrow, like going through briars and thorns ; and as it God's will to make us happy, it is our duty to go in the paths of peace, tender conscience, and melting joy, and in so doing, I don't remember the time I was sorry, though I perceive not the propriety of the thing immediately, yet I do afterwards; therefore, act as a mortal being who possesses an immortal soul, and expect to give an account at the bar of God, as if my eternal happiness depended on the improvement of my time.--Improvement enlarges the experience, and experience enlarges the capacity; and consequently can know more and more of God; and God made us so that it might be the case with us, and if it were not so, we could neither be rewardable nor punishable, for there would be nothing to reward or punish, for one part of the punishment is bitter reflections, or accusations for misimproved time and talents, the natural consequence of which, hath brought them there, and this would make distress. As holiness constitutes the felicity of paradise, what nonsense it is for an unholy being to talk of going there; for it would rather tend to inhance their pain to behold the brightness of that sweet world; therefore I think they had rather be in hell; and the mercy, and love, and goodness above, will injustice send them there, for it is the will and goodness of God, to send people or persons to the places suited to their nature, disposition, and choice. Oh, may God teach me the things I know not,-a forced obedience is no obedience at all; volun. tary obedience is the only obedience that can be praise or blame worthy; all good desires come not by nature, but by the infuence of God's Holy Spirit, through the