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Christ died for any who are lost. This shews he does not believe that Christ died for all, yet he was not honest to acknowledge it in plain words; yet he has not brought one scripture in support of his ideas, only that sometimes the term all is limited: but, said I, it never , can be used with propriety in the Calvinistic sense because it always means the greater part; yet they say a . ferv, elect, or a small number; and I gave about thirty passages to demonstrate it. He raked up the ashes of John Weslcy, and quitted the ground before I had. done. *

Hence I rode with F. and M. Cole to Camp-meeting, where the olcchitcs and some split-off methodists had. done much miscbief by prejudicing the minds of the neighbourhood; and to avoid a quarrel, were suffered to occupy a meeting-house, which belonged to the methodists ; however, the Lord was with us, and thirteen souls were set at liberty in the course of the meeting; and though there were the greatest discouragements against this meeting, yet our enemies who came as spies, acknowledged they never saw so much decorum in so large an auditory.

Leaving Hanover I came to Louisa, with Brother Mead, where I attended the last Camp-meeting for America. Providence was with us here; hundreds at these meetings gave me their hands as a token of their desire that I should remember them in my absence, and .. that they would strive to remember me when I should be beyond the Atlantic : that God would preserve, succeed, and bring me back in peace, if consistent with His will, and if we meet no more below, strive to meet above. It was a solemn feeling thus to bid friends fare- . well on the eve of embarking from one's own native country for a land unknown, and there to be a stranger amongst strangers: at this last meeting, in the act of shaking hands, many left money with me, which sufficed to bear my expenses to the north,

* Leaving his bible behind.The wicked compared us to officers fighting a duelsone flung down his sword, crying, sword fight for yourself!

Perceiving my bodily strength more and more to decline, and my heart still bound to the European world, I was convinced of the propriety of a speedy departure, and as my wife did not arrive in Virginia, where I intended to leave her at P. Hobson's; for the fever breaking out at New-York, expelled her to the country, so that she did not get my letters in time: I took the stage, and went on to New-York, about four hundred miles in about four days and nights, not getting any rest. The season being far advanced, I suffered by cold, but got an old cloak on the way at Fredericksburg, which I once was necessitated to leave here: arriving in New-York I found my Peggy and friends well, and a vessel bound for Liverpool: I gave Peggy her cholce, whether to go to her friends who were still at Pittsburg, waiting for a fresh in the river, or to Virginia, to P. and M. Hobson's, who had made the request; or to my Father's, who had wrote to that purport; or to tarry with friends in and aboni New-York who solicited; or to go with me to Europe, the dangers of which I had set before her: she choosing the last, if agreeable to me: I engaged our passage accordingly, on board the ship Centurion, (Benjamin Lord, Master) belonging to a steady fair Quaker!

When I was in Europe before, I suffered much from the political state of affairs, for the want of a Protection, and proper Credentials ; but now after I had got ready to sail, only waiting for a fair wind, the Lord provided me with them. The penny post brought me two tetters one day, and one the next, containing a certified recommendation from the Governor of Virginia, with the Seal of that State ; another containing an American protection under the seal of the United States, from Mr. Madison, the third man in the nation: this was obtained only on the intimation of a Methodist Preacher : a third was from the Town Clerk, Magistrates, County Clerk, Judges and Governor, of Connecticut, giving an account of my parentage, &c. &c. as may be seen in the document.

Considering my four Credentials, which had so provi. dentially fallen into my hands, I thought it advisable to Have my protection perfected so as to carry authority

out of the nation, and conviction or evidence op an investigation, and went to a Notary Publio's Office, with two substantial witnesses accordingly, viz. Nicholas Snethen and James Quackenbrush : bere my descriptions were taken, proper, and certified as may be seen in the 'heginning.





QUNDAY, Nov. 10th, 1805, havog got equipped

for sailing, and my affairs settled as well as I could, considering my many disappointments, the wind became fair, we saw them hoisting sail, and from circumstances I believe the captain designed to have left us behind--so I hired a boat for ten shilings to put us on board. The sea was rough and I believe somewhat dangerous; but we reached the vessel in time, and she soon was under way. I wrote a letter for our friends, to notify them of our departure, which the pilot took ashore: whilst writing we passed the light-house, the sea began to toss the vessel, whilst an ocean without bounds seemed to present itself to view, and the land to disappear. Poor Peggy went on deck to look about and beholding above, returned with death seemingly pictured in her countenance, we lost sight of land before night; she began to grow sick, becoming worse and worse for some days, and then recovered it better than for some years.

18th. The wind blows a fresh gale : the head of the rudder was observed to be unsound; so the helm would not command the ship, which exposed us to great danger. The captain afterwards said that he skifered more in his mind on this voyage, than in all the times he had been at sea before; howerer, they got cordage and wedges and bound it together as well as they could, and carrying less sail to prevent etraining, we weathered the voyage, as Providence favoured us with an aft wind.

20th. We are now on the banks of Nenfoindland about one third of our passage. There are thousands of sea-gulls around our vessel, four land birds came aboard. one of which the mate caught and let it goIn one of the late gales it appears Peggy passed through some trials of her faith, as I heard her saying, “how much easier to rely on human probabilities, than on divine promises." When our Lord called or set apart the Iwelve, he did not at first send them to preach and do miracles, but kept them with him a while, and then gave them commission to go forth with power, &c. and predicting what should happen to them in their latter days, to prepare their minds for it, and afterwards it appears, he told them what should happen to himself, which it seems they did not realize, as they had an idea of a temporal kingdom; but he informed them that, what they knew not then, they should know afterwards more per fectly. Though God the Father had already revealed to Peter, that Jesus was the Christ.

After our Lord's resurrection,'he renewed a promise of the Holy Ghost or Spirit, being given unto them more fully, yet commanded them to stay in Jerusalem until that time should come, and then they were to go and preach every where they could among all nations; and for their encouragement, promised further to be with them unto the end of the world, &c. Now, he cannot be with his ministers, unless he hath ministers to be with. and this promise could not refer to the Apostles alone, as he previously predicted their dissolution; therefore, it must include succeeding ministers, which God in Christ would raise up to tread in the Apostles' steps, and they cannot be his ministers, unless he has sent them, any more than I can be the King's ambassador, when no embassy has been committed to my charge.

Singing I once delighted in the sound of, but after my conversion, abhorred it abstracted from the spirituality, and when in Ireland, almost was quakerized in that sen timent, but after I saw the effects of singing in the poirer of faith at the camp-onectings, &c. in the awakening and conversion of signers, I was convinced of the medium, and that singing properly is a divine employment, and can be done to the approbation and declarative glory of God and our own profit.

t Dec. 38. We have seen but three vessels on the way, one of which was the Nen-York of Philadelphia, which had brought General Moreau from Cadiz to Amer

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