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ica, whom I saw at Trenton ferry-The winds have been very unsteady for several days, like some people, almost in a gale and then a calm, ... We are now in lat. 49, 29. and longitude about 20.I hope in a few days of course, we shall breathe the air of the European world. Surely the nigher I draw across the mighty' waters, the more I feel the work of my mis. sion on my mind at heart, and am more and more satisfied, that I acted in the will of God in coming, let what may ensue.I want to see Doctor Johnson whom I have not heard from this year and a balf.--A few days now will put me in quite a different sphere of life. I shall quit the ship, and then crosses, &c. to surmount, which I am conscious will require all the faith, zeal, wisdom and patience which I am possessed of, and after all must fail unless God be with me; but my reliance is on him, the great, the strong for strength, and as I penned before, so I do again, “ I feel an uncommon exercise about what is before me." What Doctor Coke will say, I know not, perhaps there is a great providence in my sailing to Liverpool first, as I expect some have heard of me there.
This is one of the happiest voyages thus far I ever had, and my companion is a great consolation to me as a lent favour, but oh! how we are apt to under or overvalue the creature, and thereby lose its blessing designed by God for us, I am convinced of our privileges of walking as it were in cternity whilst in this unfriendly world, i. e. the soul walking in the light of God's countenance, whilst veiled in flesh and blood. .
Whether I shall die a natural death, to me at times is a quere ; and sometimes causes sensations of heart, but while the soul hangs on God alone, it cannot suffer
properly speaking) though in this probationary state though there will be outward trials, yet inward peace of heart, which is sweet and satisfactory to the mind : Oh! what may we not attain unto if we be faithful ? Religion will beget sympathy, or a feeling for the welfare of othergosin makes people dark and contracted, selfish and barbarous, but religion the reverse; and those acts of bumanity, sympathy and pity, which even the Indians * and heathens shew forth, who can with propriety deny but they are under the influence of God's holy Spirit ?
oh! that people would hearken more to the guidance within, and not pat so much stress on what is handed down by tradition without evidence; then we should have more affectionate ones, than we now behold among the nations of the earth. Hundreds of my Americans friends I doubt not, are daily praying for me is
Whilst in devotion, Peggy being called to a fresh trial of her faith in the gale, the words of our Lord to his dis : ciples, " others have laboured, and ye have entered into their labours,” went with power through my mind, 1 as op former occasions, and why have I to labour in other men's labours, unless it be to provoke them to jeaLousy.
There are three Methodist connexions besides the new connexion so called, raised by Alexander Kitham, viz, the English, Irish, and the American Episcopal. one; the two latter I have travelled through from cen. tre to circumference, without their consent, and though they have done * * * other
* * * * * to hedge up my way, yet I have travelled * * * * * * * * of them as a body, however much I am indebted to individuals, as means under God to open my way, and give me access to the people. *
Thursday, Dec. 5th, saw two vessels more on our voyage; late at night saw land, and afterwards passed Waterford light house.
6th. Saw Wales ; had a fair wind with some gales; y but all is well now. We have eaten up but the smallest part of our provisions-ve shall soon be at the pilot ground, and what will then ensue, is now in the womb. of futurity, but I expect to see the providence of God in trials; but how, when, by whom, or what means, I know not, yet still I feel power to leave all to the Author of breath and disposer of all events... ;
When on my former visit, I was advised to go imme. diately on board the vessel again and work my passage back, as I should have no opening there ; but as I could not do ship-work, &c. did not, neither could I in conscience comply. Then they warned the Methodists against me, to starve me out, and only one family redeived me at first, but after God opened my way, they offered to pay my passage home, if I would quit the
country and promise never to return, which in conscience I could not do ; tben Dr. C wanted me to go on a foreign mission to some other part ; I could not comply, neither in reason nor in conscience. Then the conference passed a vote to hedge up my way whether or no, &c. &c. may expect similar from the English conferonce, op whose shores I expect shortly to land, if they think me dependent; but my trust is in God.
About the time I landed in Ireland before, this pas. sage ran repeatedly through my mind, Joshua iii. 7. and it hath been so imprinted on my mind, that now I make 'a memorandum of it-again Isaiah-"ye shall go out with joy” (from the **********) “ and be led forth with peace" (of mind by the Spirit of God, “the mountains and hills" (of difficulties and discouragements) “ shall break forth before you into siaging" (of salvation) and all the trees of the field shall clap their hands" (for joy,) &C.-Beginning of the Milleniumman Camp-meetings.
7th. We took in a pilot and came to anchor in a - Hangerous place, if the wind had blown a gale, as the
tide would not admit of our going over the bar, and the weakness of the rudder would not admit of beating into the quarantine ground. We heard of the defeat of the French and Spaniards off Cape Trafalgar, by Nelson, and also of the defeat of the Austrians. Wrote to Dr. Johnson in Dublin, to let him know of my arrival.
Sunday 8th, slipped our cables and came up the river by the town; saw about forty wind-mills as I sailed and
a few ships of war; and not wharfs as in America, but · lock docks, &c. the country around appears like a gar.
den, considering the season of the year; I sent a letter on shore to-day, for Edward Wilson, attorney at law. with one inclosed from his brother, John Wilson, booksteward to the Connexion in America.
I wrote a letter to the preachers in the city as pro parotory.
11th. Wrote some letters to my friends in America. ; The ship-carpenters came and examined our rudder, and made reports accordingly to the officers of government relative to our state-We were exempted from quarantine after a detention of ten days, which time pas.
sed heavily away, two miles above the town in the riker, as we had a bill of health from the British Consul.",
Dec, 17th, Tuesday-at five o'clock this morning the Prodic came on board, which made me rise and prepare to go on shore, and see what God would do for me there. I must undertake it by faith, as I know no one in town, and have heard of no friend. The captain will go on sbore by sight, but I cannot see an inch before me; but I had rather die than not see Zion prosper before I quit this kingdom. O Lord ! prepare my way and give me wisdom in this matter, is what this morning I ask of thee.
About ten o'clock we attempted to go on shore. I heard the tolling of the bell, which gave me a solemn feeling under a sense of mortality; when I reflected, that when at Quebec I saw a boat come (from a ship of war) with something in it, which at first appeared like a white chest, but as it approached nigher, I found it to be a coffin.-When I first landed at Savannah in Georgia, I retired to a solitary place for meditation, and found a yard with a brick wall and the gate down, and as I entered beheld the humble piles of earth, under which lay the silent human chest : also when in Dublin, I saw the genteel mode of burying, the hearse drawn by six horses, and coaches following; but in the west of Ireland, I espied across a dale a company coming down, and as we drew near to each other, I saw on a board, a 'corpse dressed like a beggar, which they carried over an old church wall to inter it; thus I see the different niodes and forms according to their ranks in every land where I have travelled : 80 mortality prevails and sweeps down all, which caused further remembrance, when once in Nen-Salem, Massachusetts, whilst riding by myself, in a shrubbery pine plain, I suddenly came to an opening, where were some graves, and one near the path had these words on the head-stone:
“ Behold, ye strangers, passing by,
Prepare for death and follow me.” Also the ancient castles I saw in Ireland, which were said to be destroyed in the days of Cromwell, yet
none could tell me when they were built. Thus I reflected, “ children did exist (as I when playing at my father's house) who built these ancient ruins; they are gone and many generations since, and at length Lorenzo Dow came upon the stage of action, who after a few more revolving years, shall be seen to act here no more ;" thus my reflections flew from thing to thing as we were landing, and the solemn tolling, ringing in my ears, but I felt consolation of the prospect by and by, of a better world to me unknown.
We landed from the leaky boat about a mile above The town, and glad was I to get once more on land, as the boat was constantly bailed by two on its way.What now? I am on shore in an old country ; old in inhabitants, and old in sin; but new to me, for I never was on the English shore before.
I left my Peggy at the Captain's boarding-house, whilst I went to transact some business of money matters, and deliver letters of introduction, &c. but all was gloomy-I returned to her, and about the town we wan-i dered till all our letters were delivered but one, and where that should be left we could not find, until I obo served the name on the wall as we stopped, pondering What to do; as the man whose name answered to the letter, observed we did not turn to go off, said, come in ; one said whilst he was silently reading the letter
dost thou know one Lorenso Dow?” I was surprised, alanswering in the affirmitive, equally surprised them.
The man said, tarry a night or two, but the wife objected inconvenience, so we put up at a boarding-house, at twenty-eight shillings British per week for one ;-got. letters from Dublin---strove to get places for meeting spoke once in an A-double-L-part places the minister was friendly to my face, but afterwards said I was crazy. We strove five times to sail for Dublin, hut was forced by contrary winds, and twice were like to be lost; the woman who asked if I knew one Lorenzo Dow was a Quaker, and having formed some acquaintance with Henry Forshor's family, No.40 Edmond-street, took me there one day; these were Methodists; the last time we were driven back, our hostess having taken in so many boarders, there was no more place for us: when before we