The time has been when I could easier have met death than this discharge-two or three handkerchiefs were soon wet through with tears: my heart was broke, I expostulated with them, and besought him for farther employment ;--but apparently in vain. The next morning, as we were about parting, he said, if you are minded, you may come to Greenwich quarterly meeting, next Sunday, on your way home.

This evening I preached in Greenwich court house, as I once dreamed, and the assembly and place looked natural to me.

After travelling through Sepatchet, Smithfield, (in which I formed a class, for the first time) Providence, and Wickford, where attending a prayer-meeting among the baptists, I asked liberty to speak, which seemed to give them a surprise, and after some time, they said, if I had a message from God, they had no right to hinder me. I spoke a few minutes, to their attention, and their leader seemed satisfied, and bid me God-speed.

From thence to South Kingston I set out for my native town; to which I arrived, and met my friends, who were glad to see me.

My parents asked me whether I was not convinced that I did wrong in going? I told them, no; but was glad: others began to mock, and cry out, this man began to build, and was not able to finish.

After a few days, I set out for Granville, to meet C. Spry, who gave me a written license, and orders to come to the ensuing quarterly meeting at Enfield, where he would give me a credential for the conference; and if I was so minded, and brother Cânkey willing, I might travel Tolland circuit until that time.

But as the circuit extended through my native town, I thought proper to forbear, and set off for Hanover, in the state of New Hampshire, to see my sister, whom I had not seen for about five years. But J. Lee coming to town next day, lodged at a house where I had enquired the road, and they informed him of me: he sent for me, and querying me whether I still preached, and by what authority, and what I came there for-shewed his disapprobation at my coming hither, and then we parted.

I tarried a few days and held several meetings, and

for the time met with no small trials of mind and opposition from without, and then returned to Connecticut, fulfilling several appointments by the way.

I went twenty-eight miles to Enfield quarterly meeting, for my credential, and C. Spry sent me to Z. Cankey, who could not give it to me according to discipline; be sent me back to S. and he again to Z. C. several times; but at length Z. C. said, have you not a written license?—I told him, yes, to preach: said he, that is as good as a recommendation to the conference, which I believed, though C. Spry knew that according to the letter of the discipline I could not be received with this, yet he told me to attend the conference.

September 20th. Conference came on in the town of Thompson, and I passed the examination by the bishop before them: and after some conversation in the conference, T. Coope, J. Lee and N. SNETHEN bore hard upon me after I had been sent out of the room and those who were friendly to me durst say but little in my favour; so I was rejected and sent home, they assigning as the reason, the want of a written credential, tho' the greatest part of them were personally acquainted with me.

This so affected me that I could take no food for thirty-six hours.

After my return home, still feeling it my duty to travel, I accordingly resolved to set off the next Monday; but Philip Wagar, who was appointed for Orange circuit, being in Tolland, sent for me, and I went twelve miles to see him.

After that he had criticised and examined my credentials, he concluded to take me on his circuit. I accordingly got prepared, and bidding my friends farewell for a season, met him in West-Windsor,

Some weeks ago, whilst I was in Rhode-Island, being troubled with the asthmatical disorder, I was necessitated to sit up some nights for the want of breath; but at length lying down on the carpet, I found that I could sleep and breathe easy.

Accordingly, I was resolved to try the experiment until the fall of the year, which I did without much trou

ble. But September 27th, being on my way with P. Wagar, he said the people would despise me for my lodging, and it would hurt my usefulness: and accordingly he insisted upon my lying in bed with him, he thinking it was a boyish notion that made me lie on the floor.

To convince him to the reverse, I went to bed, but was soon much distressed for want of breath, and constrained to arise and sit up all night. After which, I would be persuaded to try the bed no more. After travelling with him a few days into the state of New-York, he gave me a direction when and where to take the circuit. I travelled to New-Lebanon, where I saw one who experienced religion about the time that I did, and ' our meeting in this strange land was refreshing to our souls.

Monday October 10th. I rode twenty miles to Adams, and thence to Stanford: at these places we had refreshing seasons.

Wednesday 12th. I rode thirty miles across the Green Mountain, in fifteen of which, there was not a sign of a house, and the road being new, it frequently was almost impassable; however, I reached my appointment, and though weary in body, my soul was happy in God.

From Halifax I went to Guilford, and in entering a chamber where the people were assembled, it appeared natural to me, as though I had seen it before, and brought a dream to my remembrance, and so overcome me that I trembled and was obliged to retire for some minutes. In this meeting, three persons were stirred up to seek God.

Leaving the state of Vermont, I crossed Connecticut river, and through Northfield to Warwick, Massachusetts, where we had a refreshing season.

Thence I went to Orange, and preached in the presbyterian meeting-house, the clergyman having left the town. Being this day nineteen years old, I addressed myself to the youth. I spent a few days here, and though meeting with some opposition, we had refreshing seasons. Oh! how fast is the doctrine of unconditional reprobation falling, and infidelity and the denial of future

punishment prevailing! Men thus going from one extreme to the other, as they wish to lull conscience to sleep, that they may go on in the enjoyment of the world without disturbance: but, oh! would they wish to be deceived in a dying hour?

I never felt the plague of a hard heart, as I do of late, nor so much faith as I now have that inbred corruption will be done away, and I filled with perfect peace, and enabled to rejoice evermore.

I never felt the worth of souls so near my heart as I do of late, and it seems as if I could not give vent enough to it. Lord! prosper my way, and keep me as under the hollow of thy hand, for my trust is in thee.

October 20th. Satan pursues me from place to place: oh! how can people dispute there being a devil! If they underwent as much as I do with his buffetings, they would dispute it no more. He throwing in his fiery darts, my mind is harassed, like punching the body with forks and clubs. Oh! that my Saviour would appear and sanctify my soul, and deliver me from all within that is contrary to purity.

23d I spoke in Hardwick to about four hundred people, thence to Petersham and Wenchendon, to Fitchburgh, and likewise to Notown, where God gave me one spiritual child. Thence to Ashburnham, where we had some powerful times.

November 1st, I preached in Ringe, and a powerful work of God broke out shortly after, though some opposition attended it; but it was very solemn.

Some here I trust will bless God in the day of eternity, that ever they saw my face in this vale of tears.

In my happiest moments I feel something that wants to be done away: oh! the buffetings of satan! if I never had any other hell, it would be enough.

Thence to Marlborough where our meetings were not in vain.

Whilst I am preaching, I feel happy, but as soon as I have done, I feel such horror, (without guilt) by the buffetings of satan, that I am ready to sink like a drowning man, sometimes to that degree, that I have to hold my tongue between my teeth to keep from uttering blas

phemous expressions; and can get rid of these horrible feelings only by retirement in earnest prayer and exer tion of faith in God.

From Marlborough, I went to Packersfield and thence to Chesterfield, where I had one seal of my ministry.Leaving New-Hampshire, I crossed into Vermont, and came to Marlborough.

Thus I continued round my circuit until I came to Belcher a few evenings previous, I dreamed that a minister came and reproved me harshly, whilst I was preaching in this place it was fulfilled; for a baptist preacher accused me in the congregation of laying. down false doctrine: presently a presbyterian affirmed the same likewise; because that I said a christian would not get angry.

Here also appeared some little fruit of my labour, among which were some of my distant relations.

About this time, I visited Mary Spalding, who had been suddenly and miraculously restored (as was said) from an illness which had confined her to her bed about the space of nine years. Her conversation was so profitable, that I did not grudge the journey of several miles to obtain it. I found it to strengthen my confidence in God: the account was published in print, by a presbyterian minister, with her approbation.

On the 29th, I met P. Wagar, which seemed to refresh my mind. I had to take up a cross and preach before him: but, oh! the fear of man! The next day I parted with him and went on my way.

My discouragements were so great, that I was ready to leave the circuit, and I would think within myself, I will go to my appointment to-day and then go off; but being refreshed during the meeting, my drooping spirits would be revived, and I would be encouraged to go to the next. Thus it would be, day after day; sometimes I was so happy, and the times so powerful, I would hope "the winter was past and gone:" but soon it would return again. Thus I went on, during the three first months of the circuit; at length, my discouragements being so great, and inward trials heavy, concluded to go farther into the country and spend my time in the

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