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once for all; and if God does not give me seals of my labour, you may still say he has not called me to preach.
I went to New-London, to see if the salt water would clo me any good, and coming through Norwich I met with a cool reception from the society : but in NewLondon all seemed friendly. We had several powersal meetings; two were awakened and one found pardon during my stay.
I besought God to let me preach one funeral sermon in my native town; where having visited many, I preached in about twenty different houses. Having spent about four weeks, the time drew near when I must set off.
The class-leader, S. Parker, having received a wound, bled to that degree, that he died in consequence of it, happy in the love of God.
I took leave of the dear families of my acquaintance, and August 4th, preached the funeral sermon to many hundreds of people; both gentry and commonality were drawn out by curiosity to hear one of their native town, whom they had heard so much about; thinking it would do to go to a funeral, when it would not to go to another of my meetings; taking the funeral for a cloak, . After discharging my duty as God gave me strength, to old and to young, to professor and non-professor, I said, ye all see the decline I am in, and take you to record my walk and conversation since I first professed religion, and my faithfulness to you now; and if God Permit, I intend to see you again at the end of eleven months; but it is impressed on my mind as though I should never see you in time, (unless it should be in answer to many prayers (I therefore bid you farewell till the judgment day; and then taking my youngest sister by the hand (from whom I had obtained a promise to pray twice a-day till I should be twenty-two years old, reminding her of my dream, she then being in the height of fashions, pleaded she should have none to go with her; I said, I myself had to go alone and was enabled to endure--and you, after I am two-and twenty, if tired of the service of God, can turn back and the devil will be willing to receive you again, then tears began to roll) bade her farewell, and strive to prepare to meet me in heaven, and rather than have her turn back to sin, would come and preach her funeral sermon. Another sister, and my mother, and brother-in-law, I shook lands with likewise. My father's trials were so great, he withdrew, (I suppose to weep ;) and then mounting my horse, all this being in the sight of the assembly, and the sun shining from the western sky; I called it to witness against that assembly if they would not repent, that my skirts were pure from their blood; and then putting the whip to my horse, I rode off forty miles that evening before I dismounted. On the 5th, I rode seventy miles to Chesterheld. A family with whom I was acquainted, being as I thought, unwilling to receive me, I went to the next house and so pleaded that they took me in.
The next day, I rode sixty-four miles, to Hanover, and the day after saw my brother-in-law and two sisters; to whom I discharged my duty, and left them and went to Vershire.
A swelling appearing on my horse's leg, I left him and borrowed another to reach my circuit. On my way across the mountain, I preached in Berry, and the power of God was present. The next morning, crossing Onion river, reached my circuit at Essex, being two hundred and fifty miles from my parents.--Cold winter 210w approaching, my clothes considerably worn and few; and no way apparently to get any more, having hut one penny in my pocket and a stranger in a strange land; and unless God gives me favour in the sight of
Che people, shall have to walk on foot. My trust is • still in God; my mind is solemnly stayed upon him, and I do believe he will bless me here by numbers.
I met brother Sabin (a local preacher, who came to my assistance) in Jericho. After meeting, we set off (whilst one rode the other went on foot) to Fletcher: here a powerful work of God immediately broke out.
The next day, we swam the horse across the river Demile, ourselves crossing in a canoe, proceeded through a wood without any path, for some miles, and late at night came to Fairfield, about thirty miles in all, My body was weary but my soul was happy.
It was not long until I was sorely tempted to desist from travelling, and wait till my change come, but then
considering the value of souls, I am constrained to exert the little strength I have. ,
On hearing brother Sabin preach in Sheldon, I was comforted. The next day, we crossed Canada line into Dunn's Patent: here God began a good work.-From thence, to the Dutch manor, brother Miller's, where I had been before. ,
I held meeting, and a proud young woman was stirred up to seek the Lord, and found comfort and borrowing a horse I went to break up fallow ground, and proceeded to Dunham towards Mumphrey Magog-Lake, and held meetings in different parts of the town. Some were angry and spake evil of the way, and soine were serious and tender, and desired to hear again. The peo ple, in this part of the world, were the offscouring of the earth, some having ran hither for debt, others to avoid prosecution for crimes, and a third character had come to accumulate money. These were like sheep without a shepherd, having only two ministers, one of whom believed one principle and preached another. Hence I went to Sutton, and got into three parts of the town; in two of which, there was a prospect of much good; but in the other, reprobationism shut up the hearts of the people, and I must speak there no more.
Returning through these places to Mussisque bay, the prospect of good increased From thence I proceeded round the north end of the bay to the west side, as far as I could find inhabitants. The roads were so sloughy and miry that they were almost impassable; however, I got places to accominodate the inhabitants for meet. ings, all along. Here for thirty miles there was no preaching until I came: but the Lord made bare his arm.
Returning, I held meetings at the same places, and found the prospect to increase. Then going up the Lake shore, holding meetings where I had the year past, until I came round to Fletcher: here the work increased. Hence I proceeded through Johnston, up riv. er Demile, to Morris-town. Here the people had not heard a sermon for tiro years: we entered into a covenant to serve the Lord; and many were keenly convicted, and their hearts were like wax before the sun..
Hence to Stowe, where for three miles I could get no House at first; night drawing on, I scarcely knew what to do, as the families would not take me in; but at length I met a company of men, who had been marking out land in the woods; to these I made known my errand, and they invited me to go back about two miles; and the house was soon filled with people, and solemn times we had that evening and next morning.
Ten years ago, this was an howling wilderness, inhabited only by wild beasts, and now contained near one hundred families. Oh! what an alteration there is in the earth.
From hence I went to Waterbury, on Onion river, where a reprobationist gave ine these words to preach from; " No man can come to me except the Father who hath sent me draw him." The Lord loosed my tongue and good I believe was done.
From thence, I returned to Mussisque bay, under trials and discouragements of mind, but was revived on meeting brother Sabin. As I could not readily find a horse to borrow, I set out on foot towards Magog: but my body being weak, I disappointed one congregation, to my sorrow, but reached the next day's appointments in Sutton and Dunham, and God gave me favour in the sight of some, who with horses conveyed me to the several places.
During my walking, I found one fourth of a dollar, and reasoned, why have I found this? I have not had any for some time past. ! I had to walk from Dunn's patent to the bay, which was about ten miles, the nighest way, on which lived few inhabitants : I set out, hoping to get through that night, but falling short by reason of weakness, came to a house and requested they would guide me through the woods, but in vain: I then entreated Jiberty to tarry under their roof all night, as it had now become dark, and impossible for a stranger to keep the road, it being narrow and miry, and closed overhead by the branches of thick topped trees : besides, it was exceedingly dangerous, by the flocks of bears, which were uncommonly numerous this fall; but at first my entreaties were in vain: then remembering the piece of money which I had found, I offered it to them for the privi
lege, which on this condition I obtained. The next morning, with much difficulty I got through to a friend's house.
After breakfast, I obtained a horse, and set out to fulfil my appointments round the bay, which were five. Far beyond my expectation, I was enabled to go through these, riding twenty-five miles that day, and visiting the isle of Noah and Hog island, (in the latter of which I held the first religious meeting that was ever in it, and a solemn time it was) I returned to the Dutch manor, and sold my watch, saddle, and portpanteau.
For some months past, I had no hope of recovering from my declining state, unless it were by a long voy age to sea, but the impossibility of it, as I thought, was so great that I rejected the idea. But it being strongly. impressed these few weeks past, that if I tarried I should die according to the dream; but that if I were to cross the ocean to Ireland, it would be the means which God did choose to bless to the restoration of my health, and preservation of my life for future usefulness, for some particular end unknown to me. But when I considered the dangers by gea, by reason of storms and tempests, at that season of the year, and of being taken by pirates or privateers, into whose hands I might fall in this declining state, and what care would be shewn me I did not know : And supposing that I were even to get well to Europe, what might follow I did not clearly foresee : the country being in scarcity, with great disturbances, and who would receive me I could not tell-and if rejected by all, having no trade to pursue, I saw nothing but that death would follow. These things weighed so heavy in the balance of reason, that I rejected the impression, and threw it out of my mind as a temptation : it returned with more force, and pursued me from day to day. By nourishing it, I had peace; and by rejecting it, depression, which caused great distress, so that many hours of my sleep departed from me. This I made known to the preachers and some others, who had importuned me to tell them what was the matter.
After being informed, all with one voice entreated me not to entertain such a thought as being from God; see.