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ing that my labours were here acknowledged, and that there was a prospect of an universal revival : Wherefore, it is inconsistent (said they) that he could require you to go away three thousand miles, into a strange country, without friends, leaving the circuit in this sit. uation, (forfeiting the confidence which the conference have placed in you, by giving you the care of the circuit) and none to supply your place.

These arguments were powerful, and so confounded nie, that I could not answer them: still there was something in my mind that said, go, and by putting it away I could get no peace.

September 26th. I preached in Highgate, Swanton, and St. Alban's, for the last time; in Georgia and in Milton, likewise : in the latter, I once made a covenant, which they broke, and afterwards they hated me so, that they could not bear to see me.

28th. Our quarterly meeting began in Essex. I made my exercise known, and the declining state I was in, to S. Hutchinson and J. Mitchell, who would hearken nothing to it; but brought up the above-mentioned arguments. I besought for a certificate, concerning my moral conduct, hut was refused, with a strict injunction mot to go. S. Hutchinson said, I shall appear like a fool in the eyes of the conference, for supporting your cause in the manner I have done, as some said that you would never prove true to the connexion, which, by going away, will appear to be the case. But if you'll tarry, as I ever have been, so I still will be your friend; and the next conference your probation will be ended, and you will be ordained. I bid him farewell, giving him Hezekiah's lamentation-Isaiah xxxviii. 9, &c.—He gave me Paul's charge to Timothy, and so we parted, after that I had given my farewel to the people.

I now proceeded to fulfil what appointments I had made for myself; riding with J. M. to Fletcher. He again entreated me for his, and my, and the work of God's sake, to tarry, saying, “if you go away and leave as thus, I believe the curse of God will follow you" and kneeling down, besought God, if he had called me to go, to make it manifest, and if not, to hedge up my way, and so parted for a while; and I went to Cambridge, Johnston, Morristown, Stowe, and Waterbury, to Duxbury, and the quickening power of God was sensibly felt in every place. ..

About this time I met with Dr. Whipple of New-Bose ton in New Hampshire, who gave me some things for my voyage, but saying he felt for me in this great undertaking.

My trials of heart were great, to think of leaving my people and country, and particularly my parents; probably to see them no more, (so contrary to the minds and advice of all those who wished me well ;) but I have - endeavored to weigh the matter candidly before God, as

for eternity; and after making it a matter of earnest prayer to know my duty, that if the impression be from God it may increase, and if from the enemy it may decrease : and according to the best judgment that I can form, I do believe it to be the will of God that I should go; as I can enjoy peace of mind in no pursuit but this, and accordingly I am resolved to proceed as the door opens.

"My horse being brought from Vershire, which cost jeighty-four dollars, I now sold for a small part of that sum; and all which I could collect, including the price of my saddle, &c. amounted to six guineas and some prevision.

October 12th. I met brother Mitchell again: he would not bid me farewel, saying, I can't give my consent you should go. I bid him farewell, saying, I know you have ever been my friend, and are such to the present day; it is hard to go contrary to your advice; and if you think I am wilful in this matter, you judge me wrong and hard : it is in tender conscience before God that I leave you this day, for the sake of peace of mind, 'which, if I could otherwise enjoy, I would take up with your advice, “to stick and die by the stuff :" and kneeling down, whilst at prayer our hearts were melted with a feeling sense of the goodness of God; and as Jonathan and David, our parting was hard. From thence I proceeded (in a canoe which had come for me and started back, I being about twenty minutes behind the time, but hailed him, so he stopped and took me in. This was a stranger, as the first man who was to have come fór me was dead) down the Mussisque river, across the bay, to what is called the ridge, where God has begun a good work. Here some of my friends from the Manor met me with entreaties not to go, (which to prevent did not bring my chest; as apparently I must die with sufferings amongst hard-hearted sailors ;) but if I would tarry with them, I could have friends and a decent buri. al: but my mind was to go: so they went back and brought my chest to South river: we kneeled down on the bank, and besought God, if it was his will I should go, to prosper my way: but if not to shut it up. Said they, 6 we expect to see you again ;' but I replied, “it is in my mind as though I should never see you again." Some were minded not to have brought my chest, that I might be thereby, detained until it was too late for going; (as the feet was to sail in a short space.) Being disappointed of a canoe which was promised, we took another which sprang a leak before we had gone far: but we got a second down the river, and soon got into the lake.

The waves ran high, and the people had advised us not to go, as they thought there was great danger of upsetting.

The man who had promised to take me to St. John's, breaking his word, I had to look out for another, who' said, “such a day, I went out of curiosity to hear a strange man who had come to the neighbourhood, whose words reached my heart; and now I believe God has pardoned my sins, and I bless God that ever I saw your face."

Cutting down a bush and hoisting it for a sail, we reached St. John's about three in the afternoon; and after wandering up and down the town for about two hours, I found a man who for two dollars engaged to carry me in a cart to Lapareri the mail stage having gone off just before I arrived there..

After being examined strictly by the military officers, and my name recorded, I parted with the canoe-man and went on my way; being now entirely amongst strangers, and probably I shall be so, I know not but for life. The cart broke down on the road; so he had to borrow another : about three o'clock after midnight, I arrived at Laparei, being very much chilled.


The market boats, at break of day, started for Moutreal : and on my way I discovered several vessels lying at the wharf, one of which particularly attracted my mind, and after landing, I walked on board, inquiring where she belonged and was bound to. • The captain answered, 6 belongs to Quebec, and bound for Dublin :" (the very place where I wanted to go.)

Q. Will you give me a passage?
A. Have you plenty of money ?
Q. What shall you charge?

A. Sometimes people give fifteen guineas, but I will carry one for eight.

.Q. I'll give you five guineas and find myself; will you carry me for that ? if not I must return to the states.

A. I will; but you are a devilish fool for going from a plentiful country with peace, to that disturbed island. I then gave him his money, and bought some more provisions, and had a few shillings left.

After attempting to preach in a congregation of the hardest of the hard, I went on board the vessel, and put down the river a few leagues.

October 16th. I this day was twenty-two years old; the dream of the prophet now lay with weight upon my mind, which said, that I should live until I was two-andtwenty, and the hours passed solemnly away. A woman passenger said, “I judge this man's a methodist :" I turning away as with an air of disdain, said, what do you lump me in with that despised people for ? She replied, “ because you don't drink, and be jovial and cheerly as what the rest of us are : but are gloomy and cast down; like that people, always melancholy." Well, said the sailors, we'll try him over the ground, and see what he is made of; then they began to put tar on my face and tallow on my clothes, until I told the Captain he ought to make them behave more civil, being commander of the ship. However, I was the object of all their sport for seven days on our way to Quebec : during which time I suffered much with cold, having no blankets, and lying either on the cable or across some barrels filled with potash, and my garments being thin,

and nothing but a side of leather to cover myself with: But the last night I found a small sail, and begging it of the captain, I wrapped myself in it and thought myself comfortable. There was no fire below decks at this time.

One morning, a lieutenant came on board before I was up, and describing my dress, inquired of the captain if such a person was on board: I came up and the captain told me what had passed.

The officer then said, you were seen at Lapareri, &c. and was thought to be one of M'Clen's party, as a spy, and I have come a hundred miles to apprehend you, and now you must clear yourself, or go before the chief commander, I shewed him my licence and some private letters, and told him my business : he then replied, " I believe you are an honest man, and if you will enlist, I'll give you so much bounty and a sergeancy; and it not, you shall be pressed." I replied, fight I cannot in conscience for any man; because it would be inconsistent for a man one hour to be praying for his enemies, and the next hour learning to handle a gun to shoot them; but if you take me on board I shall preach. At length, I found a strange piece of money in my pocket; and he attempted to take my hat to put a cockade on it; I snatched it out of his hand and pushed him away; to which he said, remember you are not in the states now ; here it is treason to resist an officer. I making as if ) would throw them overbeard, he besought me not, as the cockade was costly ; on condition of his letting me have peace till I got to Quebec, I gave them up. At our arrival, it being evening, I would not stay on board in the captain's absence, knowing the sailors would abuse me. The lieutenant, as I carried his little chest or trunk to his lodgings, said he would send his servant to pilot me to the house of a piece of a methodist, but it being now late, altered his mind, and gave me entertainment all night, with blankets and fire, which was refreshing to me. He and his captain exerted them. selves to lead me into sin; but before we parted I obe tained liberty to pray with them..

The next morning I enquired for methodists, and through the medium of an English lad, the people being

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