nary resolution may support; and would condescend to so rascally a by a pretty rapid course * of descent subject for its own sake, or indeed To communicate this result of my for any, less object than that of geneexperiment-was my foremost pur. ral benefit to others. Such an anipose. 2dly, as a purpose collateral mal as the self-observing valetudito this, I wished to explain how it narian- I know there is : I have met had become impossible for me to him myself occasionally: and I know compose a Third Part in time to ac- that he is the worst imaginable company this republication: for dur- heautontimoroumenos. ; aggravating ing ihe very time of this experiment, and sustaining, by calling into disthe proof sheets of this reprint were tinct consciousness, every symptom sent to me from London: and such that would else perhaps-under a was my inability to expand or to different direction given to the improve them, that I could not even thoughts - become evanescent. But bear to read them over with atten- as to myself, so profound is my contion enough to notice the press er- tempt for this undignified and selfish rors, or to correct any verbal inaccu- habit, that I could as little conderacies. These were my reasons for scend to it as I could to spend my troubling my reader with any re- time in watching, a poor servant girl cord, long or short, of experiments - to whom at this moment I hear relating to so truly base a subject as some lad or other making love at my own body: and I am earnest the back of my house, Is it for a with the reader that he will not Transcendental Philosopher to feel forget them, or so far misapprehend any .curiosity on such an occasion ? me as to believe it possible that I Or can. I, whose life is worth only FIRST WEEK. 9 SECOND WEEK. 2 733 On which last notice I would remark, that mine was too rapid, and the suffering therefore needlessly aggravated : or rather perhaps it was not sufficiently continuous and equably graduated. But, that the reader may judge for himself--and above all that the Opium-eater, who is preparing to retire from business, may have every sort of information before him, I subjoin my diary : THIRD WEEK. Drops of Laud. 300 50 10 11 Hiatus in MS. 12 13 76 FOURTH WEEK. 76 16 734 18 70 19 240 80 350 Drops of Land. 60 1 23 none. 24 none. 25 none. 26 200 27 What mean these abrupt relapses, the reader will ask perhaps, to such numbers as 300 -350, &c.? The impulse to these relapses was mere infirmity of purpose: the motive, where any motive blended with this impulse, was either the principle of " reculer pour mieux sauter ; ” (for under the torpor of a large dose, which lasted for a day or two, a less quantity satisfied the stomach – which, on awaking, found itself partly accustomed to this new ration): or else it was this principle--that of sufferings otherwise equal those will be borne best which meet with a mood of anger ; now, whenever I ascended to any large dose, I was furiously incensed on the following day, and could then have borne any thing ...... .... ... none. a eight and a half years' purchase, be Let them not hesitate to express their ง Joukoa PRESENTIMENT: A FRAGMENT. If a man has a little child to whom their lips: but if he be far distant, he bows his heart and stretches forth let him read my story, and weep, his arins--if he has an only son, and utter fond breath, kissing the or a little daughter-with her sweet words before they go, wishing that face and innocent hands, with her they could reach his children's ear. mother's voice, only louder--and her And yet let him be glad; for though mother's eyes, only brighter, let him he is beyond seas he is still near go and caress them while they are them while Death is behind him—for his, for the dead possess nothing. the greater distance swallows the Let him put fondness in his breath less. And the wings of angels may while it is with him, and caress his waft his love to their far-away babes as if they would be fatherless, thoughts, silently, like the whisperand blend his fingers with their ings of their own spirits while they glossy hair, as if it were a frail, frail weep for their father. gossamer. And if he be away, let him It was in the days of my bitterness, hasten homeward with his impatient when care had bewildered me, and spirit before him, plotting kisses for the feverish strife of this world had texed me till I was mad, that I werit time came. So they approached, for it is a cruel place, where the ten· Thus I buried my thoughts with derest are most torn, because they the dead, and, as I sat unconsci- are tenderest, and the most beautiful ously, I heard the sound of young are most blighted. Therefore this little sweet voices, and, looking up, I saw one shall be my daughter, that I two little children coming up the may gather her for heaven as my path. The lambs lifted up their best deed upon earth ; and this young heads as they passed, and gazed; boy shall be my son, to share my but fed again without stirring, for blessing when I die, that God in that there was nothing to fear from such time may so 'deal with my own innocent looks and so gentle voices; offspring. For I feel a misgiving there was even a melancholy in their that I shall soon die, and that my tone which does not belong to child- own little ones will come to my hood. The eldest was a young boy, grave and weep over me, even as very fair and gentle, with a little these poor orphans. Oh! how shall hand linked to his; and, by his talk, it I leave them to the care of the careseemed that he had brought his sis. less-to the advice of the winds--to ter, to show her where her poor the home of the wide world?-and, as father lay, and to talk about Death. I thought of this, the full tears Their lips seemed too rosy and ten- dropped from my eyes, and I saw der to utter his dreadful name,-but again the two children. They were the word was empty to them, and still there and weeping: but as I unmeaning as the sound of a shell, looked at them more earnestly, I for they knew him not, that he had perceived that they were altered, or kissed them before they were born or my sight changed, so that I knew breathed, and would again when the their faces. I knew them-for I had seen them in very infancy, and through blessing, with a fierce strange voice. all their growth; in sickness when I Thus i hurried towards them, faster prayed over them-and in slumber, and faster, till I ran; but as my dewhen I had watched over them till i sire increased, my strength failed me, almost wept, they were so beautiful ! so that I wished for my death-bed, I had kissed, how often ! those very and threw myself down on a green cheeks, blushing my own blood, and hill, under the shade of trees that had breathed blessings upon their almost hid the sky with their intriglossy brows, and had pressed their cate branches. And as I lay, the little bands in ecstacies of anxious love. thought of death came over me as They also knew me; but there was an death, with a deep gloom, like the older grief in their looks than had ever shade of a darkened chamber, and been :--and why had they come to me blinded me to the trees, and the sky, in that place, and in black, so sad and and the grass, that were round me. so speechless, and with flowers so But a pale light came, as I thought, withering ? but they only shook their through the pierced shutters, and í heads and wept. Then I trembled saw by it strange and familiar faces exceedingly, and stretched out my full of grief, and eyes that watched arms to embrace them, but there was mine for the last look, and tiptoe nothing between me and the tomb- figures, gliding silently with clasped stone where they had seemed ; yet hands-and a woman that chafed my they still gazed at me from behind feet; and as she seemed to chafe it, and further and still further as I them, she turned to shake her head, followed, till they stood upon the and tears gushed into all eyes as if verge of the church-yard. Then I they had been one, so that I seemed saw, in the sunshine, that they were drowned, and could see nothing, exshadowless; and, as they 'raised their cept their shadows in the light of my hands in the light, that no blood was own spirit. In that moment, I heard in them; and as I moved still closer the cries of my children, calling to they slowly turned into trees, and hills, me, fainter and fainter, as if they and pale blue sky, that had been in died and I could not save them; and the distance. Still I gazed where I tried to stay them, but my tongue they had been, and the sky seemed was lifeless in my mouth, and my full of them ; but there were only breath seemed locked up in my boclouds; and the shadows on the earth som; and I thought, surely I now were merely shadows, and the rust- die, and the last of my soul is in ling was the rustling of the sheep. my ears, for I still hear, though I I saw them no more. They were see not: but the voices were soon gone from me, as if for ever :—but I crowned in a noise like the rushing knew that this was my warning, and of waters, for the hlood was strugwept, forit came to me through my own gling through my heart, slower and children in all its bitterness. I felt slower, till it stopped, and I turned that I should leave them as I had so cold, that I felt the burning of the foretold - their hearts, and lips, and air upon me, and the scalding of unsweet voices, to one another, to be known tears. Yet for a moment the their own comfort; for I knew that light returned to me, with those such grief is prophetic of grief, and mourners, for they were already in that angels so minister to man, and black, even their faces; but they that death thus converses in spirit turned darker and darker, and whirlwith his elect. So I spread my arms ed round into one shade, till it was to the world in farewell, and weaned utterly dark; and as my breath went my eyes from all things that had been forth, the air pressed heavy upon me, pleasant on the earth, and would be so so that I seemed buried, and in my after me, and prepared myself for her deep grave, and suffering the pain of ready bosom. And I said, now I worms till I was all consumed and will go home, and kiss my children no more conscious. Thus I lay for before I die, and put a life's love into unknown time, and without thought my last hour; for I must hasten while and again awakening I saw a dark my thoughts are with me, lest I figure bending over me, and felt him madden, arid perhaps wrong them in grasp me till I ached in all my bones. my delirium, and spurn their sorrow- Then I asked him if he was Death or ful love, and curse them, instead of an Angel, and if he had brought me wings ? for I could not see plainly:- away for ever, so that I should never but as my senses returned, I knew see my children again. At that an intimate friend and neighbour, thought my soul fainted within me and recognised the sound of his voice. without his touch, and_iny breath He had thus found me, he said, in went from me, so that I could not passing, and had seen me faint, and stir even from Death, though he had recovered me, but not till he had came nearer and nearer, and I could almost wrung the blood from my fin- see him frown through the black gers; and he inquired the cause of tossing mane. In a moment he was my distress. So I thanked him, close-the wild foaming horse struck and told him of my vision, and he at me with his furious heels, so that tried to comfort me; but I knew that the loose sand flew up in my bosom;the angels of my children had told reared his head disdainfully,—and me truly, and the more so, for this flew past me with the rush of a whirlshadow of death that I had passed; wind. The Fiend grinned upon me and feeling that my hour was near, as he passed, and tossed his arms in and recollecting my home, I endea- an ecstacy of triumph; but he left voured to rise. But my strength was me untouched, and the noise soon gone, and I fell backwards ; till fear, died away behind me. Then a warm which had first taken away my jog trembled over my limbs, and I strength, restored it tenfold, and I hurried forward again with an hour's descended the hill, and hurried on- hope of life. My heart's beat quickwards before my friend, who could ened my feet, and I soon reached the not keep up with me. When I had corner where I had first seen the gone a little way, however, the road horse, but there I stopped-it was was of deep sand, so that I grew im- only a low moan—but my heart patient of my steps, and wished for stopped with it. In another throb I the speed of a horse that I heard was with my children, and in another galloping before me. Even as I - they were with God. I saw their heard it, the horse suddenly turned eyes before they closed—but my an angle of the road, and came son's running with all the madness of How it happened I have never fright, plunging, and scattering the asked, or have forgotten; I only know loose sand from his fiery heels. As that I had children, and that they are he came nearer, I thought I saw a dead. Now I have only their angels : rider upon his back :-it was only they still visit me in the church-yard; fancy--but he looked like Death, and but their eyes are closed, and their very terrible, for. I knew that he was little locks drop blood :- they still coming to tear me and trample me shrink, and faint, and fade away, under his horse's hoofs, and carry me but still I die not! Incog. ON THE LIFE AND WRITINGS OF ERASMUS DARWIN. IN CONTINUATION OF DR. JOHNSON'S LIVES OF THE POETS. ERASMUS, the seventh child and After proceeding Bachelor in Me. fourth son of Robert Darwin, Esq. by dicine at Cambridge, Darwin went his wife, Elizabeth Hill, was born at to Edinburgh, in order to pursue his Elston, near Newark, in Nottingham- studies in that science to more adshire, on the 12th of Dec. 1731. He vantage. When he had been there was educated at the Grammar school long enough to entitle him to the deof Chesterfield, in Derbyshire, under gree of Doctor in Medicine, he quitted the Rev. Mr. Burrows, and from Edinburgh, and began his practice at thence sent to St. John's College, Nottingham, but soon after (in 1756) Cambridge, where he had for his tutor removed to Lichfeld. In the followDr. Powell , afterwards Master of the ing year he married Mary, daughter College, to whose learning and good- of Charles Howard, Esq. a proctor ness, Mason, another of his pupils, in the Ecclesiastical Court of Lichhas left a testimony in one of his ear- field. He was very soon distinguish ed for his professional skill. The first liest poems. |