down with delight to think the meffenger of Death must come. Sometimes I have gone out into the Fields, and looking around me, thought how I could rejoice to tee this earth rolling one part over another as a prelude of the Judge's approach. again it was fuggested, what if your experience is not like others, and you fhould not be ready-you don't know how others feel; nor what they may mean by the fame word, I an, fwered, I hang on nothing but the Blood and Power of the Lord Jefus, and none ever trufted in him, and was deceived; then I caft my whole Soul on Jefus, faying, Lord, here are Clouds about,me, but I will believe thro' this darkne fs.— immediately it came with power,-Bleffed are the eyes that have not feen, and yet believe-Hold faft thy confidence, which hath great recompence of reward.-1 antwered, I will truft my great Phyfician's kill, what he prescribes can ne'er be ill, and many-many times in a day those words are applied, "From all thine afflictions, my Glory fhall fpring; "And the deeper thy forrows, the louder thou'lt fing." Afterwards he told me," it feems as if the Lord had bound the Enemy, he cannot afflict me, as formerly, and if he fuggefts an accufation; those words pass through me in an instant "Mvfelf, with all my fins I caft On the atoning Blood. Then Jefus fhews me he takes them all, and the temptation is no more." When in much pain from continual coughing with fpafins all over the body, fhe would cry out ❝ Cor "Corruption, Earth, and Worme November 8th.-The complaint fo affected her throat, fhe could neither fwallow nor fpeak without great pain. That day fhe faid," I feldom awake, but with those words, " Ask, what thou wilt, and I will do it for thee—but O! what can I afk!-I have nothing to afk equal to Holiness, that I feel is my ftrongest defire, above Life, Eale or any other thing-then the Lord faid, I will caft out thine Enemies, and fay deftroy then. My Soul does truly wait on the Lord, and he often fays to me, Bleffed are all they, who wait for me." after a little paule, fhe added," I fee tuch a fufficiency in Jefus, fuch a fullnes, as I cannot tell you, my whole foul is waiting on his dear Will."Her sufferings are very grievous, not a fpoonful can the fwallow but with extreme pain ufually accompanied with a fevere fit of coughing; yet the most perfect patience and fweet refignation is vifible in her whole deportment, night and day. 9th. She faid, "I have many fweet Comforts from the Lord, as I lay awake in the night, and now how do i find fulfilled what my dear Mafter laid to me, on his death Bed-he faid, 66 Sally, you will never want a Nurse, if you fhould be fick and weak, God will provide you a tender nurle for all the kindness you fhew to me." and O! how I do prove it in you, my dear Mitress, I should have been dead long ago, but for your tender Care.-I wish I was able to ex prefs [81 prefs what gratitude I feel to God, and you"Indeed through her whole illness the was continually exclaiming," Whit comforts I have!What tender attention, and Mary too is very kind and attentive in all fhe does about me, how true is that word!" The Lord is a ftrong Hold in the time of trouble; and he knoweth them that truft in Him." 11th. She laboured much to speak, at laft faid, "I cannot tell you what fweet Communion I had last night with my Jefus,—He seemed fo near and fo loving.-I was praising him for all my mercies-and it came to me, "He that fpared not his own Son, but gave him up for us all; how fhall he not with him freely give us all things-O how true do I find that! I have every thing I can with!-Then I ftrove to praise him for the pains he is taking with me to purify and fit me for Glory; and he affured me I fhould come out of the furnace as fine Gold,but I want expreffion as well as breath to tell you what close and sweet communion it was." 12th. She was trying with great pain to get down a little Sago,-looking at me, the faid,"Chrift is mine, and I am his to all EternityO what comfort!- —no matter for this Body." 13th. She told me, the was overcome with the goodness of God" to think faid fhe, of the ftraits my Parents were brought to, and yet in my latter day to have fuch mercies.-Laft night I felt it fo powerfully that my foul feemed to call on all the heavenly Hoft to join me in a Song of praife.-O! I want Angels and Archangels angels and all the hoft of Heaven to praise him on my account." I faid, now my dear, you fee what good has been brought out of all your Croffes." Yes, replied the, Yes, Yes, I would not be without one pain-all is mercy and love, -but I have not Speech to tell a thoufandth part of his Goodness." 14th. With difficulty but much energy the repeated these lines "Come Death, fhake hands,-I'll kifs thy bands, 'Tis happiness for me to die, What do you think,-that I will shrink; I'll go to immortality." 19th. After a fore night with her cough and many complaints, the obferved," What a fweet night I have had in the love of God?-fuch nearnefs to Jefus-fuch willingness to fuffer with him; that I praised the Lord for every fit of Coughing.-Continually I am pointed to look at the dying Saviour, in these words "See from his Head, his Hands, his Feet, Or Thorns compofe fo rich a crown?" Indeed fhe is fuch a pattern of patience as I fcarce ever faw, and will often fay with a smile "Well, if it will glorify God I am ready to fuffer all this for 40 Years:-His will is all in all." At night as I was giving her fomething which fhe could not fwallow but with extreme pain, and very little even then, I faid, now, my dear, you are drinking of your Saviour's Cup when it pleased the Father to bruife him, and put him to to griefs, I have!" 66 Ah, replied the, but what comforts 21ft. She faid" these words are with me night and day,-Chrift was given for us, that God might be juft, and yet the Juftifier of him that believeth on Jefus: and when I am trying to take food with fo much pain, it often comes to me, with the finest Wheat flour will I feed thee, and with honey out of the ftony Rock will I fuftain thee."-being able to fwallow a little to-day, the cried out, "O how I abound with mercies!"—I cannot but here observe the has for years been the Servant of all, and had fuch care for the Sick and Needy, that her whole Soul feeined engaged in that bleffed work; and now the Lord fu fils his promife, he does deliver her in the time of trouble, and makes all her bed in her Sickness. 22nd. She told me he was perfectly fatisfied with the will and order of God; "let, faid fhe, this illness end how it will; we thall have caule to praise God to all Eternity for it: I have learned much in this profitable School, my will is quite conformed to that of God in all things, What I once thought I could not bear; now I feel all right in his dear will, and those words I uled fo to delight in when God fet my foul at liberty are continually with me." • Fill me with all the life of God: In myftic union join Me to thyself, and let me prove The tellowship divine.' 26th. She has remained in the fame ftate both as to body and mind, only increasing in re fignation |